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i'm gay and stronger than all of you ([personal profile] hardlydead) wrote2021-11-01 05:44 am
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bloodandbrass: (thinking)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-06 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's tempting. the way david, buzzed by the blood loss, gets in close, gets his teeth against his neck. it'd be easy to get the rest of his clothes off, get him over the workbench, find a way to make this even more satisfying than just turning ghost face into a smear in the grass again.

but.

even as his hands automatically find their way onto david, evan reconsiders. if it wasn't for the fury and the adrenaline and the blood loss, would he be doing this? or would he be pushing away with a grumbled comment about not needing help? in the past evan wouldn't even have hesitated. now, though -

it's not a good sign, this thinking and considering. unfortunately, the habit's getting in a little deep. ]


Not while you're this bad off.

[ he's turned him down for similar reasons before, although this isn't as bad, physically. in his head is where the problem lies. ]
bloodandbrass: (doubt)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-07 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ stopping isn't evan's best skill, but it's a hell of a lot easier to do when things haven't really started. ]

You weren't ten minutes ago.

[ and he won't be in an hour, once he gets a grip on himself and realizes what he's done. not just the killing, but everything else, and how evan just let him without arguing, because that's what he wants to do.

it's not often that evan thinks ahead about things outside a hunt or a trial, but he remembers how short david was with him the last few times. how damn serious he was about something evan didn't even consider was such a big deal. better not to take advantage of a bad moment, he thinks, which is probably the first time he's ever done that. ]
bloodandbrass: (orly)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-08 12:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ this he was half expecting, in all honesty. david's irritation is clear, and evan has a feeling he knows why. he'd be furious in the same situation, but he's furious all the time anyway, and it doesn't matter, really. he's never asked david for this outright. and it wouldn't surprise him all that much if he was turned down.

he doesn't move away. at least, not yet. ]


You want that? Me fuckin' you while you're at your worst? After you got so pissed off last time?

[ it's not that he doesn't grasp that david might need a distraction - that's more than half the reason anybody comes down here these days. it's that for once he's thinking a little past that. to what'll happen after. why?

good question. ]
bloodandbrass: (thinking)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-09 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ evan watches david through the anger, through the diatribe that isn't that violent but is absolutely accusing. david lays out the problem plainly enough that even evan can grasp it.

david hits the nail on the head. he doesn't understand that, because as far as he can tell, david would be the first one to be down here for a reason that isn't fairly close to what he stated. nobody's ever admitted to it, obviously. nobody's going to. he doesn't expect it. he doesn't think he's being used, because he benefits from it as much as they do. maybe more.

he also doesn't understand why david didn't just tell him to stop, before. a part of him recognizes that he was literally reading the problem as it happened, nearly stopped of his own volition recognizing the signs he knows very well by now, but it's a small part. just enough to stop him from asking outright about it, but not enough to sink in.

there's more important things to ask about. for him, at least. ]


Then what is it to you?

[ it's not accusatory. part of him wants to know. maybe it's just a break. relief from the nightmares. that isn't new, but it doesn't feel the same. it can't possibly be that david actually wants to spend time with him, given the way they beat the shit out of each other on a regular basis. his ego's a monstrous thing but it's not that out of touch with everything. ]
bloodandbrass: (bloody)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-10 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ i don't know isn't the answer he wants, but david follows it up this time, at least. evan stares at him through the mask with more than an edge of confusion at the idea's he's suggesting. coming back because of the sex - sure, he gets that, but he's still a little unsure as to why david would decide it's a good idea now, after he was so pissed off last time.

the other idea follows right on the heels of that. evan has to guess that the rage over being tied up dissolved in the wake of another kill. it's all he can get his head around. ]


That's a first.

[ or at least it's a first for anybody to admit it. ]

Killin' makes you honest?

[ because he can't imagine any other reason david would abruptly admit all this unless he was shaken so badly he can't focus on finding ways to hide it, given that he's never broached any of this before, or even turned evan down. ]
bloodandbrass: (shadows)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
You ain't said a lot.

[ that is, there's things david hasn't been honest about just by not saying anything. which is about how evan goes through his entire life, so he shouldn't really throw stones, but that's not about to stop him. ]

Tell me how it felt. Killing him.

[ last time david might have been honest, but he didn't like what he heard. maybe this is different. maybe ghost face brings out the worst in him, like the rat bastard does to everyone. maybe it's better. not that he'll appreciate being more of a problem to kill than ghost face, at least from some perspectives. ]

And I'll give you what you want. That or let you walk out. Up to you.

[ because a part of him figures that at this point, david's probably frustrated enough to want to leave him to his own devices. but who can say? ]
bloodandbrass: (back)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 11:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ well, that didn't work. ]

Like I said. Up to you.

[ he doesn't push the issue. evan's not against bartering for information, but it's clearly got david's hackles up, and it gets on his nerves knowing now he's got an association to the dead fuck just by right of what he said.

evan backs off, taking the remainder of the bloody bandages and blood-soaked rag with him, but doesn't go too far. ]


He ain't worth listenin' to. He deserved it. Deserves worse.

[ not that he thinks david's going to listen to advice from him about ghost face, unless it involves a better way to cave his skull in, but he knows when something's stuck a little deeper than it should. ]
bloodandbrass: (mask)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ evan gives him a look - careful, blank even under the mask - and tosses the rag into the bucket again. ]

You like killin' him?

[ flat, outright, to the point. like david said. he knows most people would enjoy it, even on david's side. he knows it's happened a few times, too, although people mostly only enjoyed the part where he was dead, not where his blood was on their hands. even on his side some people find it disgusting to have had to kill him, because of who he is. what he is.

for evan there's no real distinction. ghost face is a problem, so he kills him. problem solved, and in a way he likes. the complexity of these sorts of things is long since faded for him. mostly.

but he knows that's not the case for everybody. ]
bloodandbrass: (orly)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 05:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ evan can hear the flatness, but he doesn't question it. he asked a question, he got an answer. it's the one he wanted to hear, because if someone regrets killing that asshole, then they aren't worth his time.

he puts away the bandages and looks down at his own foot, where the knife went straight through his boot. the foot'll heal, and the boot too, probably, but for the time being he's got that to put up with. ]


Good. Next time he sees you, maybe he'll know to shut his mouth.

[ the insults were aimed and sharp, even if they were a little off at the end. but pain'll do that to a man. ]

Or at least he'll know better than to let you get hold of him.

[ probably not. ]
bloodandbrass: (doubt)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ david's probably right. the idea of ghost face learning is laughable, after all.

the careful question that follows makes evan look at him again, away from the cuts - attempted cuts, really - on his arms. ]


Yeah.

[ part curiosity, part real interest, part wondering - just a little - where survivors stand on outright murder when it's them doing it. circumstances can change the answer, but at the end of the day, he's always waiting for them to be hypocrites, and he's usually right.

but where he might have ground this in before, there's been enough time for him and david to deal with each other that he doesn't see the point. they've discussed this, angrily. and david was honest enough earlier - don't actually hate being around you that much - that he can take the answer on its own. ]


Would have to kill you if you regretted killin' something like that.
bloodandbrass: (shadows)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Just checkin'.

[ didn't regret killing him? good. even if it made him huddle up in a corner somewhere, regret shouldn't be a part of killing him, unless it's the regret of knowing what's coming next as a result.

but it's been a while since that was really an issue. ]


Do it again and he might even forget about you for a while.

[ unlikely, but he does tend to back off after at least a few brutal kills when evan does it. ]
bloodandbrass: (back)

[personal profile] bloodandbrass 2024-05-11 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That ain't new.

[ anything can make a trial bad. evan knows. he's done it more times than he can remember. anybody who breaks in, who breaks the traps, who mocks him, who gets away - he makes sure they pay for it. they all do. and ghost faces like to hold a grudge.

with their wounds mostly cleaned up, or at least david's, and him having effectively cut off any other possibilities, evan turns back to the forge and opens the back grate to dump another shovelful of coal into it. the dim light of the room flickers. ]


Go back the other way. Otherwise he might be wakin' up.

[ don't give him an early chance for revenge, he means. ]

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