[ evan watches david through the anger, through the diatribe that isn't that violent but is absolutely accusing. david lays out the problem plainly enough that even evan can grasp it.
david hits the nail on the head. he doesn't understand that, because as far as he can tell, david would be the first one to be down here for a reason that isn't fairly close to what he stated. nobody's ever admitted to it, obviously. nobody's going to. he doesn't expect it. he doesn't think he's being used, because he benefits from it as much as they do. maybe more.
he also doesn't understand why david didn't just tell him to stop, before. a part of him recognizes that he was literally reading the problem as it happened, nearly stopped of his own volition recognizing the signs he knows very well by now, but it's a small part. just enough to stop him from asking outright about it, but not enough to sink in.
there's more important things to ask about. for him, at least. ]
Then what is it to you?
[ it's not accusatory. part of him wants to know. maybe it's just a break. relief from the nightmares. that isn't new, but it doesn't feel the same. it can't possibly be that david actually wants to spend time with him, given the way they beat the shit out of each other on a regular basis. his ego's a monstrous thing but it's not that out of touch with everything. ]
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david hits the nail on the head. he doesn't understand that, because as far as he can tell, david would be the first one to be down here for a reason that isn't fairly close to what he stated. nobody's ever admitted to it, obviously. nobody's going to. he doesn't expect it. he doesn't think he's being used, because he benefits from it as much as they do. maybe more.
he also doesn't understand why david didn't just tell him to stop, before. a part of him recognizes that he was literally reading the problem as it happened, nearly stopped of his own volition recognizing the signs he knows very well by now, but it's a small part. just enough to stop him from asking outright about it, but not enough to sink in.
there's more important things to ask about. for him, at least. ]
Then what is it to you?
[ it's not accusatory. part of him wants to know. maybe it's just a break. relief from the nightmares. that isn't new, but it doesn't feel the same. it can't possibly be that david actually wants to spend time with him, given the way they beat the shit out of each other on a regular basis. his ego's a monstrous thing but it's not that out of touch with everything. ]